Honesty is something I struggle with a lot. I have struggled with it for years. I believe one of the reasons I’m here at FMA is because of this struggle and how hard it has become. I have lied about little things from brushing my teeth to cleaning my room. I have also lied about big things from sneaking out to stealing. I have gotten in huge trouble for lying, and I know if I don’t change I will be facing some major struggles.
I have damaged and even destroyed relationships through my lying. My dad and I are very close even though I have lied to him countless times, but my mom and I are somewhat distant due to my dishonesty. My dad loves me so much that even though I have lied to him, he sticks right by my side and helps me improve. I know that very few people care enough to do that and that is why it is so important to me. I don’t want to feel the way I always feel when I look at Dad after I’ve lied to him, seeing pure emptiness in him. I want to be able to look at him, tell him the blunt truth, and, even though I may have done something wrong, have him feel proud of me because I showed him enough love and respect to tell the truth. I want to feel proud of myself because I know I am honest and can trust and feel better about myself.
Honesty will benefit me and will allow me to have the meaningful relationships I want to have.