In the days before solo, I was really looking forward to the time alone to do some reflecting, planning and sleeping. On the drive, and the hike up to my campsite, I was thinking the experience would be easy and fun. By the end of day one and the start of day two, I started changing my mind about how “fun” it was.
I sat by my fire and counted up how many days until graduation. I wasn’t counting them off because I wanted to know how much longer I had to wait to leave this school. I was reflecting on how little time I have left here and how much of the time for the past nine months had been wasted on “practicing being a teenager,” and “teen babble.” Back in September, and December, and even February, I felt like I had plenty of time to put my whole heart into what I was here to do: learn and grow. But I had only been putting my best effort into my work some of the time, and as I looked back on that, I wished I had done it differently.
Over the four days of solo, I thought a few times about my character at the start of September, and how it is now. I realized that how I think is different and better, and that I have confidence I did not have before.
The most significant experience of all, was realizing the responsibility I am going to have over myself after I graduate, and how important it is to use time on important things.
Although I did think of these life issues while on solo, I also spent time building a cute shelter I am very proud of, and gathering wood for my fire. Most of my days were spent sleeping or reading. At night, I would lie on my back and watch the stars while listening to the night creatures around me. To my surprise, the night and my surroundings were very relaxing. I am proud of myself for having a good attitude about solo, and choosing to make the most of it.

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